This week started with my 29th birthday….. It was met with mixed emotions. Part of me worried that I would spend the next year dreading my 30th. Part of me thought I look too young to worry about a birthday. Part of me even thought, “I’ve got my shit together for my age”…. and a big part of me thought, “I wish I were 20”.
My week ended with my being denied a job I really wanted…. Suddenly the fact that another year of my life has passed seems insanely painful. My “first world problem” may seem trivial to many or even all of you. All I can say is that I promise you I’ve been dealt my share of true struggle over the past 29 years. No, this doesn’t come close to those things… But at the end of the day, I really wanted something and I didn’t get it. So, just for today, let me wallow in it. Let it be ok that I find it hard to smile. Let it be ok that I don’t want to talk about it. Let it be ok, that just for today, I worry about my future… because by tomorrow, when that future arrives, I’ll be ok.
The Zuf Truth 